A Day to Day Post
Wow. God’s timing is pretty amazing, especially when He wants to get my attention and tell me a little message. This time the message was, “Heidi… Heidi listen to me. I am the one leading you and I won’t lead you wrong. I will provide for you and I will use you to challenge, strengthen, and encourage others. You really need to trust Me.”
Is it possible to struggle to believe these things that I know to be true? I feel like the man who said to Jesus “Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.” (Mk 9) I’ve felt this way when people ask me how fundraising is going and how plans are for getting to Ireland. At times, I’m not quite sure what to answer other than “I’m sure God will provide when I need it.” Then I worry that I’m not doing what I’m supposed to.
Tuesday my elder met with me to help talk through finances and future budgeting. There’s a lot he tried to help me wrap my mind around and that he challenged me with. Everything together left me feeling pretty overwhelmed with decisions and concepts and tasks. I came home that night to find a letter in my mailbox that could’t have been more timely. In fact it was unmistakably a message from my sweet savior.
The letter was from a friend I met at camp. She talked about how God had put me on her heart and she was challenged and encouraged by my ‘George Muller like faith to go to God for my needs.’ It’s crazy to think that I could be a blessing just because of my personal faith with God. I was just floored by her encouragement. She even sent me a large gift of money saying “this is what God told me to send” as an encouragement to help as I prepare. Her faith and sensitivity to the spirit is amazing. God really used her letter to speak strait to my heart. He made the timing perfect as she would have had to send it three days beforehand so that it would arrive on the exact day I needed that encouragement.
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name. Ps 103 Lord, I believe! Help my unbelief! Mk 9